What's red, white, and black all over?

I was awoken this morning to someone knocking at my door and my dog barking at them. It was the postman. And he was delivering, my wedding "flowers".

This is my bouquet:

These are loose button stems that I'm gonna mix with fresh red roses for my bridesmaids.

These are the boutonnieres for my groom and his groomsmen.

This is my mom's corsage.

Clay got a new blackberry today! He is super happy. And he kinda knows how to work it. Haha....

This afternoon we went to Petsmart and they were having adoption days. So, as you can expect, I fell in love. She was a seven year old strawberry-blonde dachshund named Trixie. And my mean fiancee wouldn't let me take her home with us. I cried and cried.... Well after we made up Clay explained that he really wanted a puppy, and promised that we would get us a puppy by the end of the year.

On a totally separate note, my family is having some issues, and I am really mad at certain people, and really sad for others. I don't really wanna talk about it though.

Hickory smoked goodness....

Today I finished the last thing on my list of things I had to do before starting nursing school. I got re-certified in CPR for Health care Providers. The class was really long and boring, but at least it is done.

Tonight Clay and I ate at a new restaurant for us. It's a little barbecue place that's really close to our house, and it is phenomenal. Clay ate ribs, and I had a hickory burger. Every other hickory burger I have had has just been a burger with hickory barbecue sauce on it, but this one was a hamburger patty that had actually been hickory smoked. It was sooo yummy. I predict will will be frequenting the place.

I am moving onto plan B for my aisle runner. My original plan was to make one out of a 50 ft. long piece of fabric, but this ended up being a big hassle. My new plan is to buy one of the cheap ones that is already on the roll, and go from there with the decorating.

Come away with me...

I'm sick!!! It's just my period, so I know I'll survive, but gosh..... this month is bad. I haven't gotten out of bed today.

It's a bad all-around day.

I'm not too happy with our wedding venue. They keep going back on things that they've said they would do or have. But I didn't have it written into the contract so, I could kick myself now. The newest thing is that I have to find a portable PA system. Basically all they have is a cd player and speakers. There is no microphone, and there isn't even a way to hook up one to what they have. So I either have to find a portable one that has everything in one box that a mike plugs into, or one that is connected to amplifiers and a mixing board.

I wish Clay would just run away with me and elope.

I just... love him

I'm having an emotional day I guess. I dunno. Everything is making me cry. Could be stress, could be that school is starting in a week and I'm not ready, could be that my wedding is in a month and I'm not ready, could be that I'm jealous (currently praying about that by the way), could be that I miss my best girl-friend and I wonder what happened to us, could be that I'm just a really lucky girl.



I feel so lucky to have Clay. He is that guy for me.

When I'm scared or worried about something, he reminds me to pray.

He is quiet a lot, but one look in his eyes shows me what he's not saying.

When I cry myself to sleep, he holds me and he prays with me.

He takes care of me, and he makes me take care of myself when thats what I need to do.

He is patient with me, even when I don't deserve it.

He tells me what I need to hear, when I need to hear it.

He guides me in the right direction.

He hopes with me.

He dreams with me.

He tells me about our babies.

He loves me all the time, even when I'm gripey, when I'm pms-ey, and when I'm cry-ey.

He looks at me like I'm something special.

He kisses me goodbye even when he's running late for work.

He appreciates me.... and I appreciate him too.