I'm done wih it all.

I'm done with it. All of it. I'm tired of - wedding. I'm tired of my house being messy, and my dining room being covered in wedding crap. I'm tired of having to call my mom every few days for more money to pay for all the crap. I'm tired of my husband to be adding more people that I don't know or care about to our already overflowing guest list. I'm tired of his friends and co-workers thinking that they can bring 3 extra people with them. I'm tired of inviting everyone that works for his freaking company.

It's not what I wanted. I wanted to elope. That would have been special to me. It would have been just me and just him, and all the other stuff wouldn't be there.. Shad and Janae even said they would go with us to witnesses. Now I have a whole crowded room of people coming that I don't know or care about, and I want to pull my hair out. I'm not getting the intimate romantic wedding that I really want. It's making us fight.

And I'm sick. i have a super bad cold, and our wedding is 6 days away. Joy.