Huh? What?

Thinking back 1 or 2 years ago, I was a completely different person. I was independent, debt-free, organized, confident, pretty, thinner, .... I worked full-time for hospice, I went to school (barely studied and still got good grades), on-again off-again with a guy that I didn't really care about, and I spent time with all my friends all the time. My house was on of our hangouts, and it wouldn't be crazy to walk in and find 5 or six people playing video games in my living room and 3 or 4 in my kitchen cooking. I was a part of all these different groups. There were the sorority friends, the frat guy friends, the church friends, the school friends, the work friends, and the hometown group. I fit in with every single group, and I had my place in each one.

Now I feel lonely, kinda. Don't get me wrong, Clay is amazing! I just need more. All I do is go to school, and stay home with Clay. We go out occasionally with Shae and Tyler, but that's pretty much it.

I don't have groups anymore. I am taking a class at church, and I thought that I would might make friends there, but that hasn't worked. There are a few people in Clay's family that could possibly be friends one day, but they are only there right now when it's convenient for them or when they need me. I tried hanging out with the video game crowd, and it wasn't for me either. I have friends at school, but they are just friends at school, and not outside.

I just feel like I have to find my place in this new life I have.