My Sassy Bella Girl

So my friends have kids, and I have.... Bella. I decided I wanted a dog when I was about to move into my first apartment. I had lived with my parents, with a boyfriend, and in the college dorms, but never all alone. My parents had owned dachshunds and I knew I liked them, and one of my favorite patients had just bought one, so I went to her breeder. I called her and told her that I was about to live by myself for the first time, and that I was looking for a new best friend. When I arrived at her house, I had a pen full of about 10 puppies to choose from. The boys were quickly eliminated leaving the baby girls. I limited them down to two- a fat little red one that looked like my mom's Ladybug, and a tiny dapple, the runt of all runts, that seemed so sweet. When I told the breeder my decision, she told me that I was the only person that she had offered the tiny dapple to, and that she had planned on keeping her and breeding her because of her coloring and her small size. She only offered her to me because she was a loner, and didn't play with the other puppies too often, so she thought she might be good for a young, single girl in college. So that is the story... of how I got my girl. These are the most recent Bella pics!




Her favorite toy is a squeaky soccer ball. That makes my soccer-player husband happy!

I tried to show her different-colored eyes.

I feel like she looks puppyish here.

Sleepy little girl is just waking up from a nap.

Huh? What?

Thinking back 1 or 2 years ago, I was a completely different person. I was independent, debt-free, organized, confident, pretty, thinner, .... I worked full-time for hospice, I went to school (barely studied and still got good grades), on-again off-again with a guy that I didn't really care about, and I spent time with all my friends all the time. My house was on of our hangouts, and it wouldn't be crazy to walk in and find 5 or six people playing video games in my living room and 3 or 4 in my kitchen cooking. I was a part of all these different groups. There were the sorority friends, the frat guy friends, the church friends, the school friends, the work friends, and the hometown group. I fit in with every single group, and I had my place in each one.

Now I feel lonely, kinda. Don't get me wrong, Clay is amazing! I just need more. All I do is go to school, and stay home with Clay. We go out occasionally with Shae and Tyler, but that's pretty much it.

I don't have groups anymore. I am taking a class at church, and I thought that I would might make friends there, but that hasn't worked. There are a few people in Clay's family that could possibly be friends one day, but they are only there right now when it's convenient for them or when they need me. I tried hanging out with the video game crowd, and it wasn't for me either. I have friends at school, but they are just friends at school, and not outside.

I just feel like I have to find my place in this new life I have.